Alone

My friend gave birth to a baby boy yesterday. I am over the moon for her. She lost a baby last year, it was awful, so to get to this point with her is just fantastic. She got her positive pregnancy test the day I got my ‘maybe’ pregnant IVF #2 test, so I suppose if I am truly honest, [...]

As usual….

…the lady in red turns up at an unwanted time. The period pains were not a false alarm, it arrived yesterday. A 26 day cycle (after the post failure bleed).
This has thrown me about when to try again. If I settle into a 28 day cycle, we might just be able to work round C.roatia. If I continue to [...]

Please don’t mess this up for me

I have been thinking about when to cycle again.
I had July in the back of my mind. Hopefully that would be enough of a break for my body and mind. Then I hit a snag. The timing of our trip to C.roatia meant that I would either have to be away during the 2ww or wait [...]

Hoping

I have decided that a change of name is in order, I wasn’t happy with ‘B’. It didn’t give me enough of an identity, so after a bit of brainstorming with JJ, I have decided to change it to Bee Cee, it’s a kind of connection to my real name so I am happy with [...]

Are we missing something?

It is so hard not to be consumed by infertility. When it takes over, it is the predominant thought, every single day. Some have been thinking about it every day for years, now that must take its toll. I have been thinking about it for about 18 months and it honestly feels like 18 years.
I [...]

A new Me, W.ii’s & W*ankers

The gym seems to be going well. We’ve been 6 times in 11 days and the good news is I have put weight on!! What?! Yep, I have gained 2 and a half pounds. Now I know the story about muscle/fat yada yada yada but give me a break here, give me some incentive.
The routine the gym [...]

Memories

I have finally uploaded some honeymoon photos. You can find them here.
Hope you enjoy them.

Decisions

I went to see Mr A last night to talk about the failed cycle with Dr Dick.
It was a bit of a surreal conversation. I first filled him in on all the details…follicles, doses, eggs, fertilisation, cell division etc etc. The next question he asked was how far I had progressed with the Spanish idea [...]

Want a laugh?

I can’t believe I am sharing this….so embarrassing, especially as I can’t even say I was drunk!
Bear with the first minute, it gets better when me and my nephew get going.
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-8156274831631416342&hl=en
P.S if you wonder what’s going on at the end, it’s my train getting pinned up, it was supposed to stay tucked up all night [...]

The Power of Giving

You know that feeling when you have really helped someone and it makes you feel good? A bit like when we support each other, it gives you a nice warm glow that makes you feel like you are making a difference.
Now imagine if you can, what that would feel like if it was multiplied by [...]