Kick back

Firstly I want to say thanks so much for everyones help. You all went to so much effort for me and it makes me feel overwhelmed that people care that much. I am not worthy.
I have been thinking a lot…surprised? No? I am a big thinker, perhaps that explains why I have found so many [...]

I need help

My head is all over the place at the moment and I am trying to come to terms with what happened, whilst at the same time trying to think about what to do next. Thanks to everyone for the messages, it has really helped.
Mr Big Time Charlie is away with work, so that’s not helping [...]

Obviously I hadn’t had my share of kicking

You know when you think that the only way is up? That you can’t feel any worse, that you can’t cry anymore?
I wrongly thought I’d had my fill.
Zero fertilisation, now why didn’t I predict that one? We’ve always had 100% so it never entered my mind….stupid me.
So it’s over. £4000 down the spout for nothing. I [...]

Please don’t kick me any more

Can’t really find the words.
I woke up from the anaesthetic and asked how many eggs I had……3 came the reply.
I turned my phone on and I had a text from my Dad saying our family dog has died at 1.30 this morning.
The embryologist popped by before I left the hospital, only 2 eggs are suitable [...]

A sign?

I was playing M.ario Kart w.ii online last night, that’s where you can race against other people in the world who are linked up to the internet at the same time.
It picks about 10 random people for you to race against and their user names come up.
Last night one of the people in my race was called [...]

Friday Fun

Egg collection is Friday. The nurses were debating whether to trigger me tonight or tomorrow. I am glad they are leaving me another day as I have always done 13 days of stims on the cycles where my egg numbers have been highest. And as far as I am aware, any eggs that they haven’t [...]

Just another manic Monday

I have had the bitch of a day today, I feel stressed up to the eyeballs. Nothing major, mainly incompetent people who can’t do their job properly and the won’t put things right went they cock up. Arrrrghhhh.
The theatre on Saturday was fab, we had a great time and thanks to reading the synopsis before [...]

Quick update

Day 8 scan today. Follies not really showing much more improvement (in terms of numbers) since day 6. I have 7 in total, not stellar by any ones standards. I normally have more at this point but I have to remember that it’s a different type of cycle.
I didn’t ask their sizes, although she was [...]

My heroes

It’s been Operation Patio full steam ahead this week. Dad arrived on Monday and him and Mr Big Time Charlie have been out in the garden all day/night, every day/night. They have worked and worked and worked, I have been amazed by their determination despite the rain, the mishaps and problems that have occurred along the [...]

Half a year

I got up this morning and went downstairs to the study where I work. On my desk was a bouquet of flowers and a card. The card said ‘To My Wife On Our Anniversary’. In between the words ‘Our’ and ‘Anniversary’, Mr Big Time Charlie had written the word ‘half’. Wow, it’s 6 months today [...]