1 in 1594

So we had our NT scan yesterday.
We have a risk of 1 in 1594, which is classed as low risk.
So, why am I still worried? I think it’s because everyone else seems to get 1 in 3000 or 1 in 10,000.
I spoke to the midwife today, she said it was my blood results that has [...]

Taking the stabilisers off

I am due to start reducing my estrogen and progesterone from 11 weeks. I am 11 weeks and 1 day today. I stop the medication completely at the end of my 12th week.
I don’t want to stop them! I am scared. Am I normal?
Also, I need to start giving some thought to ‘telling’ people. We [...]

Peaking from behind the cushion with one eye….

10 weeks 1 day scan and all is ok.
Measuring at an enormous 36mm and 10 weeks 4 days, so all still looking good for now. Wish I could find how wordpress lets you reduce the font size in posts as there are parts of the last sentence I want to put in tiny tiny writing.
There [...]

Breaking the mould

Most evenings Mr BTC and I watch tv. He has a long day at work, commuting 4 hours to London, so after dinner we just sit back and relax.
Last night we were watching a very well known English soap opera. One of the male characters was talking to his ex-girlfriend. He was trying to win [...]

A letter to our nearest and dearest

A letter I have sat on my kitchen work surface, ready to post to our closest friends and family. Just can’t bring myself to send as yet….maybe if all is ok after the next scan.
Well, who would have believed we’d ever have the pleasure of writing this note!!…..
Finally, we have a light at the end [...]

And breathe

I feel like I am constantly holding my breath.
I can’t relax.
I can’t enjoy anything.
I can’t write here in case I jinx anything and for that I apologise.
I am anxious.
All the time.
I am not sure when it will pass.
Today made me feel better.
8 weeks, 1 day and another scan. Measuring at 8 weeks 2 days and heart [...]